Getting Nervous...

Ok, so I'm not nervous for the labor part of this actually.  It's more for everything else that is going on.  I am definitely on an emotional roller coaster ride.  As my belly grows and the weeks pass I keep thinking about the fact that I'm going to be alone soon with a baby.  I know I have family and friends to help me, but I still won't have my soul mate here beside me.  It just won't be the same.  I cry now...a lot.

I've been trying to come up with plans for things I can do to make the time go by quicker while he is gone.  My list is getting pretty good, but I'm not sure if it will really help.  Don't be surprised if I am very quiet while Ed is gone.  I do that when I'm upset...I'm already doing it.  It is part of my process so don't take offense.

The one true thing I do know is that the Lord will watch over us and protect us.  I can't image going on without my faith.  Our Savior has already brought us to where we need to be right now, and I know he will continue to guide us.    I am thankful for our past trials which forced us back to Boise near family and into an amazingly supportive ward, and I know these up coming trials will bless us in the end.  We must continually learn and grow, and I know this experience will help us both become stronger.  There is no need to fear.

We've been married for 5 1/2 years.  It's been hard and amazing all at the same time.  We are bound together in every way possible and I know that our love and devotion towards one another will get us through this.  The Savior was generous enough to let me have Ed so early on in life and I thank him for it everyday.  Even though I must let him go for a short while, I know things will be all the better for us when he returns.  I will at least have our little girl to keep me company.  I pray he makes wonderful friends while away so that he will not feel alone.  I'd hate for him to feel alone.  I love my husband so much, and although I'm looking forward to kissing the little baby feet that kick me all the time, I'm dreading having to let my husband go off on that plane just a few weeks later.  He will never cease to be in my thoughts and my heart.  He is my eternal rock and companion.  Oh how I love him. ♥

Snow Day!

Holy Cow!  So much snow!  I feel like I'm back in Pocatello again.  Goldie enjoys it very much.  This picture was after she ran around in it and packed it down.  Not to mention she loves to eat it, hence her huge tongue in the picture.  She's a fun dog.  I especially love her big ears. :) 

Today will most likely be a slow day at work.  I'm not sure how many people will brave this weather here.  You'd think being from Idaho would make them used to snow.  But, alas, every year it never fails...so many paranoid drivers!  Most just stay in their homes I think. 

I have 3 1/2 more weeks of work left now.  It's coming up so fast.  Ed gets to start his paid vacation around the 20th!  It will be good to spend more time with him...we might get sick of each other though ;)  Naw...we will have fun!

Aurora's room is still empty.  Her closet is packed full of stuff, but I haven't done anything with it.  Apparently I'm not very good at this whole nesting thing.  We should be getting the crib and dresser soon though, so I will at least get to put her things away and get the changing table ready.  I am excited to decorate...I just need furniture!  Soon...very soon...

This time of year is so fun!  We have so many dinners and parties to go to.  I'm excited!  I love all of our family and friends.  We are so blessed...I can't tell you all enough how much we love having you in our lives.  ♥♥♥